04 April 2013

.70 Melbourne, Australia (two years later)

I haven't updated this blog in almost 2,5 years. I think sometime during that time, I stopped treating my adventure in Australia as a holiday and started seeing it as my home. This is where I live now. If someone asks me where 'home' is, my immediate response is 'Melbourne, Australia'. That being said, not a day goes by where I don't think about how lucky I am to have had the pleasure of having the oceans and the rain forests and the animals and the most incredible red dirt I have ever seen in my backyard for the past 3,5 years.

A lot has happened since Australia became my 'home'. Far from all of it has been great, but every single event has made me a much stronger person than I was the day before. In a recent conversation, a friend I have known since long before I moved out here said to me, "You always seem like someone who is very much in control of her life. and I mean that in the nicest possible way. Sometimes I'm a bit awestruck even... I'm definitely not saying life hands you presents though. I'm sure you come across your own share of grief, hurt and sadness; but it's how you deal with it.", and it made me realise how far I have come since I left the safety of Sweden. The safety of always having someone close by who would pick me up if I fell. Moving across the world on my own is the scariest thing I have ever done, but it is also the best decision I have ever made for myself.

Despite unexplainable sickness, despite heartbreaks, despite working 4-5 days a week whilst trying to get through an education at the best university in the country, despite missing out on friends' important life events back home, despite mental breakdowns and anxiety attacks, despite close friends fighting for their lives, despite sometimes wishing my mum and dad were here more than anything and despite being so stressed out at times that I barely sleep for weeks; I am forever happy to be here and I will never regret my decision to cram the most important bits of my life into a single suitcase and take the risk. Thanks to this ongoing adventure, I have grown to be a person I actually like today.

23 December 2010

Friends. This is what happens when you let me be bored around three packs of hair dye. Please don't put me in that situation ever again. Thanks.